My Story (Raw Expressions)

     I just finished one of the most influential, life touching, essays I have ever read in my life, and it leaves me in this moment of awe. This man expressed a moment in his life that I felt as a reader. I personally know as a person who enjoys writing, there is no greater feeling then connecting with your audience.I could not believe how he brought me in and i was there! I could feel the emotion that he felt, I could smell the smells, I could see the visions, his moment was my moment! From beginning to end he had me experiencing this moment in time.

     Many have told me that I have a story to tell. I have a story that needs to be heard, but we all have a story! What makes my story any more special than the next persons? Sure, there are moments in my life that I would love to share.  There are moments in my life that i want people to feel as I did, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid that i won't do justice to my moment and there is nothing less valuable than a watered down moment. I fear that I won't have the right words to portray such emotion. I'm afraid that i only get one chance to tell MY story and i don't want to mess it up! But what i fear most is that I will have to relive those moments in order to share my story.

     As I sit here writing this blog, I question: "What do I have to loose?" If people say you have a story to tell, why not tell your story? They cant judge you for telling your story, HEMORY!! Sure, I can understand your fears, but isn't that what expression is all about? Making yourself vulnerable? I guess I should think about it this way, If I don't tell my story...Who will?

Oh and by the way here is a link to that article that touched me so dearly! http://augustturak.com/personal-transformation/the-magical-umbrella-how-a-monks-christmas-present-changed-my-life/attachment/brother_john_book

WIll You be Able To Create a Masterpiece??

This is for anyone who has ever considered themselves a writer. Whether you are writing for movies, songs, plays, or just for the sake of writing, we have all experienced that moment of revelation.

I can remember being back in my first English college course. I have always thought that I was a good writer. It has always seemed to be one of my strong suits, so of course I was only right in thinking, “This class would be easy!” Boy was I wrong. I would spend hours upon hours compiling some of the best essays I have ever written only to find that I barely got a passing grade. “Are you serious?” I would ask myself. I could not understand how a piece I put so much work into could be viewed as anything less of an A on the grading scale.

            It wasn’t until that autumn day in the Library. The professor told us we had thirty minutes to write an essay on whatever we wanted. I thought to myself, “What an easy assignment!” I was confident in my writing ability; in fact I was cocky in my writing skills. Time passed by and one by one students were handing in their papers. I looked down at my sheet and there before me lye a blank sheet of paper. I couldn’t think of anything. I was definitely experiencing writers block. Out of desperation I decided to make a mockery of this assignment and write my “Ode To a Piece of Paper”

Ode To a Piece of Paper

How dare I stain your body with my emotion?

Who am I to paint the words of my soul upon your canvas?

When we as people only take your presence for granted.

We walk all over you, burn you, ball you up and throw you away as if you were a piece of trash.

We never take the time to admire your beauty.

The way the azul line drape across your naked surface.

Your features fit so neatly and flawless.

You give off such a thin appearance but your potential, Oh the potential you encompass!

There is so much depth to be found on you, so much passion, so much love, so much hate, so many problems, yet so many solutions.

But we look at you as a novelty and not as a necessity.

You hold so many of our secrets and tell so many lies and yet we still confide in you.

You may not speak but my friend, you say volumes!

Why do we only value you when you’re green?

Why is it that when you don’t display what we want to see in you, we rip you apart?

But you’re always there, never expecting anything, never passing judgment, there to listen and to be heard.

You’re such a fragile piece of existence with many faces and many facets.

Sometimes it’s hard for me to read you and at other times your message is so clear.

So, in saying this, let me the first to admit that I need you.

I have always valued the relationship we’ve shared.

I want to apologize for the many times I’ve overlooked you, taken you for granted, and the countless times I’ve tried to replace you. You’ve always been special to me.

There is nothing in this world more romantic than lying beside you, on a dock, basking in the glory of the sun, and making sweet love in between……… your lines!

            I quickly turned it in without giving it a second look. The next day in class as he handed out the papers I look at mine and there it was, the grade that I felt I deserved all this time, staring me in the face. The professor had given me a 100 percent and wanted to see me after class. After class he congratulated me on such a beautiful piece of paper and edged me to title it, its current title.

            There I stood at the end of a whole semester and I had finally learned a lesson. No matter how good of a writer you think you are. No matter how much you prepare. The best stuff comes from the heart. When you are stripped of all stimuli and everything, leaving you with that pencil and sheet of paper, What masterpiece will you create?

Journey to Manhood Part II

Journey into Manhood Part I

The Case of The BG's!

So I'm having this conversation with my friend and some how we come across the term "Bubble Guts". I suddenly notice this blank look that comes across his face and I realize he has no idea as to what the "Bubble Guts" are! In shear shock I ask him if he knows what that term means? I couldn't believe it but he had NO IDEA! It baffled me, so we quickly started inquiring about the term. We asked multiple people and many of them had no idea what the term actually meant. Yeah, sure they had a general idea as to what it could mean, but it wasn't a part of their everyday vocabulary. I even decided to do a survey on Facebook and still I received a ton of people not familiar with the term. After all of this I decided to Google the term. The first definition that pulled up was from the urban dictionary. It read, "The noises made in your stomache when your ass is about to burst due to a case of explosive diarrhea."There were countless other links of people who had encountered the term, but had no idea as to what the meaning was. The only conclusion I have come up with is that this term is probably a cultural based term. Needless to say my friend was very excited to learn this new term. He stated he woke up in the middle of the night, stomache rumbling and bubbling, and exclaimed, "I think I have the Bubble Guts!"

Poetic Inspirations (Shihan)

Poetic Inspirations (Poetri)

GOOD MUSIC (Esperanza Spalding)

Writers Block

I sat there with pen and paper with the desire to write.
But the more I tried and force it the harder the fight.
See it started out as a love poem, you know the kind filled with romantic metaphores and similes.
The I love yous and the you and me's.
But I knew that not having this in real life could ruin me.
So I decided to write sumthin deep. the kind of poem that says stuff like, " I wanna fall in love with your genetic make up. Than forget you in my dreams just so I can re-remember you when I wakeup" but I soon realized that this was just a waste of...... depth.
Becuz although it makes complete sense in my head at the end of the day its just a con.......cept.
So I tried to write sumthin tragic but I'm kinda sensitive about all that death stuff so I embarked on sumthin magic.
I tested a bit of that harry potter type stuff, than I sampled a little of that modern type stuff, but I wanted more, so I mixed the two sorta like a fusion.
But as I always do, I realized what's magic to one is just anothers illusion.
So there I am stuck in the realms of my imagination, with the sudden fascination just to write.
And as I looked at what used to be a blank piece of paper I realized sumthin must be right.
Than it hit me, all I needed to do was set my thoughts aside to see.
That these pages weren't filled with the words I wanted to write, but instead they were stained, with the emotion inside of me.

....and now back to our regular scheduled program!

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Can Kanye Handle The Fame?

     Listening to a local radio station the other day I overheard the Disk Jockey state that, “I don’t think Kanye West knows how to be famous!” When I first heard this statement I pondered what he could possibly mean. Kanye has been in the spotlight since 2004 when he released his debut album The College Dropout. So the statement still baffled me, “How could Kanye West a very notorious individual not know how to be famous. I thought about it for a while and came to the conclusion that maybe that D.J. was on to something. I mean after all there are no lessons on how to handle your fame. There are no “How to be Famous” handbooks. So is Kanye struggling to handle his notoriety?
     Many people have commented on how he looks “uncomfortable” on certain shows. For example, when he was on the Ellen DeGeneres show many would say he seemed out of place. We all have seen the Taylor Swift incident and have at least heard the George Bush statement, are these all acts of Kanye not knowing how to be famous? My opinion in all this is that Kanye West is a genius. Sure, many people hate Kanye for his antics and pompous personality. But the question is how much do they really hate Kanye. I believe some have developed a love to hate Kanye attitude which has fueled his career. These are the same people who are going to go out and buy Kanye’s album to critique it, watch all his appearances to see how he “make a fool of himself”, these are the same people who still attends his concerts to hear what he has to say to the fans. Whether it is bad or good publicity the bottom line is that Kanye West still makes sales, tops the charts, and beyond all that makes GOOD music! So the question of “Does Kanye know how to be famous” can’t be answered because who has actually mastered this skill? The question should be instead, “Is Kanye a great artist?”

Ahhhhmazing.

Quote of the day :
“The good times of today, are the sad thoughts of tomorrow.”
-Bob Marley-

No matter who you are, this quote is applicable to your life. Everyone has had a day or two, that they didn't want to come to an end, and by the next morning, sadness overwhelms you while you wish you could do it all over again.

Warmin up.

I should be sleepin, but I cant stop thinkin. Thoughts-runnin rampant. Somethings I said, I wish I never meant it-but. But what can u do? What I choose, is to ignore, then accept it. I think thats called denial and acceptance? Whatever the matter, still thinkin about the latter-things that use to, but now dont even matter-however, I made up in my mind, where those subconscious thoughts dwell, to leave HELL to the sinners. I will always and forever be a winner.

Wiz Khalifa x Hardknock TV

Oh na na, whass my name?

They want YOU!

The "YOU TOO" Response!

Have you ever been at a department store and on the way out the associate says “Have a Nice Day!” The appropriate thing to say in reply would be a simple, “You Too!”
 This is all fine and dandy but sometimes I get a little carried away with such a default response.
 For instance, the associate sometimes say, “Thank You for shopping with us!” My mind once again goes into default mode and I blurt out a “You Too!” 
Now that doesn’t make any since. They didn’t shop in your establishment, what were you thinking? Ever since it has just been a bad habit. I try and catch myself right before it slips out but it does.
 Everything has the reply “You Too!”
 Lady compliments me on my beard, “That’s a nice beard you have.” “Why thank you, YOU TOO!” 
“Please Come Again.” “YOU TOO!” 
“I can’t wait to see you next week. “YOU TOO!” 
I know your probably thinking “What a silly problem!” but 77.3% of American face this same problem every day, according to the statistics I just made up. We have to put a stop to such stupidity in America. 
Not only is it an embarrassment to you as the “You Too” person but it makes the person receiving the response just as uncomfortable. My solution is the next time I’m greeted I’m just not going to respond! 
That’ll teach them to try and pull a “You Too” response out of me. You know I bet they all know me by now and grab all their other department store friends,

Associate:  “Hey here comes that “You Too” guy watch this!”

Associate: “Hope you like the underwear you bought, sir!”

Me: “Thanks! You Too!”

Love and women

In my attempt to try to twist and manipulate the human language to fix my mouth to try to say just how beautifully in love I am with you, words can do no justice. I don't know quite exactly what it is but, somethin about the love of YOU! Loving me, perfectly is just too overwhelming at times. You let me penetrate the curves of your mind and what I found I will never let it go. Sometimes I wonder if I am dreaming but I know that this is real. I hope everyone can have the chance to let their dream girl become their reality...

Khalifa!

Good Music

Good music. What is it? ..While some think it’s R&B and others think it's Pop, I myself, being a HUGE music fan, would have to say Hip Hop. No, not Waka Flocka, not Lil B, not Soulja Boy-REAL Hip Hop. Just because you rap, doesn't mean you’re Hip Hop.

Hip Hop is music, passion, art, poetry, style and for some, a way of life. There takes a certain amount of intellectuality to be a Hip Hop artist, that the majority of mainstream "Hip Hop" artists don't possess. Many TRUE artists are overlooked due to what the people want, and the silliness that the world wants to hear. In this day and age, you have to dig deep to find a REAL Hip Hop artist that you can appreciate, and say to yourself, "Now that's music!”

I personally am in LOVE with the "Backpack Rappers." What is a Backpack Rapper? This phrase is typically used for young aspiring artists, who use their lyrics to dictate their life experiences, and maybe even situations that you have experienced and can relate to. Backpack Rappers speak to AND for the younger generation, and get their inspiration from the greats who have come before them. Backpack Rappers = New generation of Hip Hop.

THUGS VS. GENTLEMAN??

This is for all the ladies out there. As Men we find it hard to read or even understand the Woman species. So I’m hoping to get some clarification behind a certain myth. Many guys out there have this prenotion that women are more so attracted to the “thug” or “bad guy” image than a respectable gentleman. Many times I have been forced to deal with this and have even questioned my whole “nice guy” image. What is it about thugs that interest you ladies?

                Thugs give off this bad guy, been to prison, kind of tainted image and yet ladies are attracted to this! I just don’t understand what the big draw is all about. Is it the fact that you never know if he cares or is even being faithful, is it the fact that he smells like the streets, is it his deboir attire, or is it that you like the challenge of trying to tame such a beast? I really find this concept hard to understand.

                Many women would argue that a good man is hard to find. Some would even say that men are all the same. That statement may have some truth to it. All men have the potential to be the same but we all choose different paths. Good men are not hard to find, I can name at least five in my inner circle. It’s not true that all the good men are taken either ladies. We are here on our grind. Grind meaning going to school, working towards a career, setting goals for our future. So where are you looking?

                Let us analyze the places women find men. The clubs- trust me ladies most men you find in these places are looking for one thing. That guy who tries to spit game in the mall- although he may be worth the try, if it appears he is spitting game than maybe that’s all he’s spitting. All I’m saying is ladies hit up the book store, give that guy in your class a chance, these are the men who will love you.

                Now I’m not saying I know the best places to find a “good guy” but ladies you have to be picky when choosing a man. If it seems you can only find thugs, change your location, sit down and think about the qualities you admire in a man. There are Good men out there! Yes, we may be a little sensitive, we may even cry every now and then, but I can promise you one thing when it comes to loving a woman, WE DO IT BEST!!!

My good friend suggested that we have a topic about something positive. SOooo, I recently seen For colored girls, and boy! AS a man, I am utterly and completely stunned at the one particular characters of the dancer and her guy of interest. He wore a suit, tie, and was just dressed casket sharp. He took her out to dinner one time and the next, she invited him into her home. He took off his clothes and his body was marked with tattoos all over. Needless to say, that he proceeded to rape this young woman of color. I hope that women dont get too trusting of a man jus bcuz he SEEMS like a nice guy so quickly. Ladies, u have to make him wait to jus get a chance to give u a peck on the cheek, CHIVALRY is the key. If a man doesnt wait for u, then he does NOT deserve to b in ur presence. Some men jus cant appreciate a black intelligent and beautiful woman, its sickening to kno that they would choose to beat, rape, and destroy the very thing that gave us life! Women please proceed with caution, bad men come in all shapes, sizes and disguises...

Ok so i kinda had this random day of thinking (as i periodically do) and what i just could not wrap my mind around was the power of words. Words hold so much meaning at the subjectiveness of others, that they can cause a multitude of feelings. SO, at first i thought of how people who use words have the ability to either do good or do bad. People can use words in so many twisted convoluted combinations that can cause nations to want to take up arms and destroy others. the tiniest words can grow into the biggest insecurities. think about what u say and how u say it, cuz people who say that words dont hurt, are liars!!!

Reality shows that never made it.. "A day in the life of Chris Collins"

Check out Kanye's Runaway Video - EPIC!!!

B Yung delivering some DEEP poetry!!

This is HOT!!

And you thought it was just a kiss!!

Nothing says passion like kissing! I mean it says so much! But have you ever just taken the time to analyze the facts behind kissing? Well if you hadn't here are 10!

1. Two out of every three couples turn their heads to the right when they kiss.

2. A simple peck uses two muscles; a passionate kiss, on the other hand, uses all 34 muscles in your face. Now that’s a rigorous workout!

3. Like fingerprints or snowflakes, no two lip impressions are alike.

4. Kissing is good for what ails you. Research shows that the act of smooching improves our skin, helps circulation, prevents tooth decay, and can even relieve headaches.

5. The average person spends 336 hours of his or her life kissing.
6. Ever wonder how an “X” came to represent a kiss? Starting in the Middle Ages, people who could not read used an X as a signature. They would kiss this mark as a sign of sincerity. Eventually, the X came to represent the kiss itself.

7. Talk about a rush! Kissing releases the same neurotransmitters in our brains as parachuting, bungee jumping, and running.

8. The average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married.

9. Men who kiss their partners before leaving for work average higher incomes than those who don’t.

10. The longest kiss in movie history was between Jane Wyman and Regis Tommey in the 1941 film, You’re in the Army Now. It lasted 3 minutes and 5 seconds. So if you’ve beaten that record, it’s time to celebrate!

And you thought it was just a kiss!!

Watch only if you like Dingalings!!!

The Beards!!

Road to BEARDOM!

So i was just in the shower and I was thinking. I'm on this journey to be a great man one day and potentially have a billion dollar empire. So, as I said, I was thinking what are some things that many great men possess. After giving it thought and not to mention I could feel my skin start to wrinkle, it hit me! Great men equals BEARD!! Think about it, Jesus had a beard, I'm sure Socrates and Aristotle had beards. Zeus had a beard,Moses had a beard. The great Abe Lincoln almost had a beard. Einstein.....didn't have a Beard but he had a crazy looking mustache that we could classify in the beard section. Any how that is my inspiration for growing a beard, hence set me forth on a road to BEARDOM. I must say I have a pretty great beard forming at this moment. I'm sure you guys out there can respect the ability to grow such a thing. I mean hey even some of you ladies hold this ability as well. So with that being said I am on the right track for greatness and the "Road to Beardom"!

Shihan "This Type Love"